runawayforthesummer:

You know, yes, the letters Hamilton wrote to Eliza are adorable, hilarious, no chill, etc.

But you want to talk about someone with abandonment issues, look no further than Alexander Hamilton.

This is why how he writes to John and Eliza is so important. Why you can mark who he loves by that desperation, that neediness he has to KNOW they love him, to KNOW they won’t leave him, to KNOW they haven’t forgotten him.

Yes, it’s funny. Yes, it’s deeply sad. Don’t be fooled by the bluster in how he writes to say Kitty Livingston and believe Hamilton is bought by passion.

Remember he’s a boy whose father left him and whose mother died, with wounds so deep that his survival is a near miracle. Remember how he clung to any attention his father showed him, near begging his dad just to love him. And remember how scared he must have been that anyone he loved would leave him too.

And remember how self-destructive that can make you.