You must seek it within your own self first otherwise it’s just no good at all. I completely understand your need to communicate your heart and find fullfilment in the sharing but:
a) true emotional fullfilment is found in the source itself, the source of your own mind and heart, and sometimes this alone is enough and it should feel more than enough. sometimes sharing is just not possible because there’s no right “audience” for that particular kind of depth and raw communication or when you, yourself aren’t ready, for this or that reason, to share what your heart is about with people you love and trust .
b) trust and love are all a prerequisite for understanding, the sort of understanding that doesn’t magically vanish the next day or when situations and circumstances change.
c) when “people” aren’t people who naturally bring the sharing out of you and are worthy of your soul’s monologue then they are simply not the right people. you cannot insist on wanting to share something, even if that very something is incredibly valuable to you, in case there’s no people around who plainly speak to your heart and you feel them to be your “equals” emotional language wise. it’s just doomed to remain empty wishful thinking on your part tbh. i think you must go slow with this and not focus on the absence of others’ “depth”, but try to remain quietly in the truth of your own feelings. and shelter that truth. and get rid of some of your need to indulge in external criticism. and proceed into thinking of the “sharing” process in more personal and valid terms.
Whenever a Scorpio feels something, anything, it hurts.
Think of the strange, compelling, almost-frightening pleasure-pain of sex. It hurts, but it’s good, but it’s too much. You want it to stop. You never want it to end. You feel like it could kill you; you think you might die without it.
Dramatic? Yes.
But it’s not an exaggeration.
That’s what emotion is to a Scorpio. It’s choking, burning, drowning everything. Happiness, sorrow, love, anger, fear- it’s always Too Fucking Much. Life, for a Scorpio who as not yet learned to control emotions, is an intense, interesting sort of hell.
Cancer is so weak that a gentle breeze might as well be a hurricane. Pisces actively seeks out or creates excessive emotions to deal with boredom.
Scorpio is a different story. This is a sign that can know, accept, and even embrace powerful emotions, despite being strong and without actively seeking such experiences.
This is the root of Scorpio’s secrecy: they don’t want anyone else to know how much every little thing, good or bad, hurts. They’re frightened by how intensely they can focus, how long they can obsess, how deeply they feel. If you knew, you’d be frightened too.
They feel too much, and they also see everything.
Say a wife is cheating on her husband, has been for some time, but no one, including the husband, notices. An evolved Scorpio can see, with a single glance, exactly what is happening and why. A mature Scorpio knows that it’s best to let them figure it out themselves.
It can take people years to see what is painfully obvious to a Scorpio in an instant, which is another reason Scorpios prefer to keep quiet: they’re afraid they’re wrong. They feel like they’re crazy for seeing what no one else can. Even if they speak out and are right, people may deny the truth and stick to more comfortable lies.
So… There you have it.
For Scorpios, Everything Always Happens So Much and it is Literally The Fucking Worst. Please try to understand.
[also applies to pluto dominants; can apply to anyone with significant scorpio energy in the natal chart; does not necessarily apply to all scorpios, because a good number shut that part of themselves away and refuse to/can’t access it.]
Daintyfire 